Contemplating the sad life

I was trying to finish up my storybook but ended up watching some japanese cartoons. I need tips to beat procrastination. Any suggestion?

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I like it when I can step into the bath and lay back, letting the warm water lap at me, soothing away my tension. Especially after a heated arguement with mum. I hate it when my mum bugs me in every aspect and we start to rub each other the wrong way. You know. It just drives me nuts when she starts going off on a tangent on her theory. And it's always about her THEORY, her OPINION and her WAY . I hate it even more when I suddenly go mental and start splitting and throwing hurtful words at her and then the guilt kicks in. Maybe i should try stepping into her shoes, and internalize her situation then. I don't understand why we can never bridge that gap, but let the rift between us widen instead.

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Anyway I like all the small chats with gracie. I really do. I like it the way she can wipe out the huge ball of negativity building inside me and convert it into something positive. Yesterday lasted 01:01:08 and today was 01:30:47. Phew, we sure talk alot. I don't mind to be camped out by the phone, waiting.

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